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13 July 2017 @ 03:37 pm
i'm holding on forever but how long will forever last  
that abyss of:

anything could happen
at any moment
(anything.)

that abyss of:

any moment
could be my last
(any moment.)

that abyss of:

writing over my own words
to obscure them from view
(who?)

that abyss
another abyss
(who?)

that abyss of:

piling up my words in boxes
labeled “i need you to destroy this
if i am not able to”

(who?)

too many abysses
too many sinkholes
too many places i’ve left myself to

too much unspoken
and too much unspoken
and too much unspoken again

magic magic magic
are you in there
is that a pulse, or





the ritual lists to the side
our allies have something to say about that
our magic is not enough against

not enough against
not enough again
never quite enough

the roaring abyss
of the indifferent and placated
of the walking dead

who want and want and want
and want and want and want
but refuse to receive

not so much that i wasn’t made for this world
as it is that i was made for a world
that then changed its mind
 
 
music: dark muse - ethereal alchemy
 
 
 
Every Day Above Groundmallorys_camera on July 13th, 2017 08:16 pm (UTC)
Good writing, though! For what that's worth. :-)
selva oscura: [hokusai] great waveanonymousblack on July 13th, 2017 09:03 pm (UTC)
thank you. ♥ been struggling with a lot of shame, lately. shame about eeeeeeeverything.
translucentflowerfalls on July 16th, 2017 07:27 pm (UTC)
"this is of course, an oversimplification. The alchemists own tendency was to over complication. Like the ceremonials, alchemists phrased their writings in intentionally obscure wording. ostensibly to shield their teachings but also served to shield themselves from persecution."

--from The Goddess Alchemy Project, my go-to album for painting.