selva oscura (anonymousblack) wrote,
selva oscura
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maybe she'll have better luck than me



almost (not quite) the view from my front lawn
roland water tower finally getting some desperately-needed restoration
(little all-caps chuckle at that link, won't spoil the surprise)
i've been... pretty hung up on this structure since we moved to the neighborhood eight years ago
quite the convergence of SIGNIFICANT THINGS
a little safer for evening visits than the cemetery across the street from giant, too
though it's going to be fenced off for the next several months

we walked around st. mary's cemetery over the weekend

it's funny how i often seem to end up living near cemeteries
the house i was born in had a hundred-years gone graveyard about fifty steps out the back gate
(note to self: i think i took some pictures with the olympus around the time i wrote that post, maybe they still exist?)
sometimes i'd take my witchy friends out there to show them
hoping maybe they'd feel it
hoping maybe they could explain it
hoping at least maybe they'd be someone i could talk to about it

that moment of tripping the veil
not sure which side i landed on
not sure if the memory i have
of waking after dark to see an old woman standing at the foot of my crib
was a grandmother
or a GRANDMOTHER
maybe one of the reasons i have the experiences i do
is because either way
i returned her smile
and waved back
because that's what we both needed
in that moment

the veils are getting thin
please help your friends with otherworldly sensitivities
this year especially
by sitting and listening for your ancestors and allies
one of the things that doesn't get talked about
at least in any of the literature i've encountered
is that sometimes
if an ancestor has an urgent message for one of their descendants
but for whatever reason
their descendant isn't listening
they'll reach out to a loved one with otherworldly sensitivities
sometimes while they are performing a speaking role
at a public ritual
with more than fifty attendees
i mean i used it
like i do
but listen:

this is one of my callings.
it's one of the reasons i write and make art.
serving as an intermediary in this way is a sacred duty i am honored to perform
i talk
i listen
i witness
i am witnessed
but there is a lot
a LOT
of very heavy shit going on
in this world and in all worlds
especially with regard to
civil rights
the environment
intergenerational trauma
spirituality
the commodification and abuse of magic
the way we are using our resources
our attitude about those resources we are using
against a backdrop of overwhelming sudden, tragic, unexpected loss

which kinda means
i mean
i pray
i shield
i do boundary work
i also
have

limitations.


and it is time all of us learned some skills in this arena
because the overall lack of skill in this arena
the number of people refusing to listen
even to do the sometimes not exceptionally challenging work to understand such messages on their own terms
get past the fear and ego shit
the number of folks not doing that work is exactly why we are where we are with regard to
civil rights
the environment
intergenerational trauma
spirituality
the commodification and abuse of magic
the way we are using our resources
our attitude about those resources we are using

i'm thinking about writing a post about it
guess i kind of just did
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